“Create in me a clean heart . . . and restore a ‘right’ Spirit within me” was my prayer after a drama-filled morning of attack-thoughts toward a cleaning service that did not ‘show up’.
Due to a very high-impact week of family company I couldn’t quite imagine how I could get the lodge ready to go into another weekend of company without some major help. After finally making arrangements with a mountain cleaning service to come help me, I got a nagging message from Spirit, “They aren’t going show up!” Feeling just a little controlling, I called to confirm with the local proprietor that she did indeed have me on her schedule and that I would have an early morning crew to help me. With a great deal of explanation she assured me I would have cleaners in the morning.
At 5:00 am Spirit awakened me with the message: “Get up, they are not going to show up.” Totally energized, for the wrong reason, I began cleaning like a whirling dervish, with unrighteous thoughts.
First, my egoistic thoughts were: “How could she do this to me!”
Then thoughts of revenge: “I am going to YELP the heck out of this business owner. . . I’ll tell everyone how incompetent she and her business is . . . . blah, blah, blah . . . .”
And then finally, as a bead of sweat strung my eye, compassion found its way, and I heard Spirit say: “How are you showing up?”
After a small pity-party, I began a self inventory based on my deepest belief that everything is something:
• What is this really about? What am I to see?
• What is the lesson? What is the blessing?
• Where am I not fully expressing gratitude in my life?
The answers came quickly!
My first thoughts were of total appreciation and gratitude for staff members at Southwest Institute of Healing Arts who faithfully ‘show up’ 360 days a year to clean our four facilities. Several team members came to mind, all of which have experienced amazing spiritual transformation while on ‘on assignment’ in the maintenance department cleaning daily. As I found myself on my knees wiping down the bathroom bowl and floors a calm flooded my soul; I found peace in the moment knowing what I was doing had purpose and importance.
A few minutes later I was dusting an old plaque with the words: When life gets too hard to stand, kneel! Little tears of realization slipped down my cheeks.
My second awareness was that the snit I was having about cleaning our second home was a true expression of non-gratitude. Humbled, my heart expanded like that of Dr. Seuss’ fictional character ‘the Grinch’. The difference was my heart grew more than three sizes in that moment.
Turning inward, I felt great compassion for the woman who was trying to run a business, with staff she couldn’t count on to ‘show up.’ At that very moment the door bell rang and a tiny hobbit-looking woman stood at my door apologizing for being late. She didn’t know where the rest of the crew was, however she was happy for the last-minute opportunity to be of service, although she had just worked a night shift watching over her friend’s mother who had been expected to ‘go to heaven’ while under her watch.
“Oh my . . . can my lessons get much more dramatic as to how much there is to be grateful for?” I thought.
A Course In Miracles teaches: “Life is a course in miracles and we all required to take the course.”
My favorite part states: “Only the time you take the required lessons is voluntary. Free will does not mean that you can establish the curriculum. It means only that you can elect what you want to take at a given time.”
Create in me a clean heart, oh God
And renew a right spirit within me
Cast me not away from Thy presence,
Take not Thy holy spirit from me
Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation
My salvation was realizing it wasn’t the cleaning I was resisting, rather the time that would be required of me. In my ego-mind I thought I had more important things to do. What Spirit knew was that once I got into the quiet-Zen-state of cleaning my thoughts would calm and I would be able to listen.
Spirit is very polite and will not speak when competing forces dominate.
Those who take cleaning seriously know Spirit shows up in the quiet of cleaning. For me, it is when surrendering to dusting, scrubbing and cleaning toilet bowels that Spirit offers moments of clarity and truth. When I ‘show up’ for the task at hand (whether it is cleaning or serving in some other way) Spirit ‘shows up’ as well.
Yes, everything I had just experienced was in Divine-perfection with my soul’s curriculum.
The next song that buoyantly filled the air was “I Can’t Wait to Show Up in Heaven” from Keith & Melody Green’s ‘The Prodigal Son’ album. The parable of the Prodigal Son/Daughter is that of squandering time and resources. Metaphorically, I realize I was squandering a piece of heaven on earth with my ungrateful attitude. By embracing the opportunity to clean my house, I cleaned my attitude as well.
My mental post-it is: Show up! Clean up! Create your own little heaven!
KC Miller is the founder of Southwest Institute of Healing Arts in Tempe, Arizona. She has been a long-time metaphysician and student of A Course in Miracles. Please FOLLOW KC Miller on her personal Facebook page and LIKE her Facebook FAN Page: KC Miller ~ Instrument of Spirit.
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